SO IF YOU HAVE EVER FELT THAT PAIN IN YOUR STOMACH THAT SOMETHING BAD IS GOING TO HAPPEN. I HAVE IT, AND IF IT HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH MY BEST FRIEND I WILL HATE HER FOR THIS. SHE KNOWS I AM HAPPY AND SHE KNOWS SHE HAS NO CHANCE WITH US BEING TOGETHER. IF WE BREAK UP THIS WILL BE THE WORST CHRISTMAS I HAVE EVER HAD. THIS HAS BEEN THE WORST WEEK OF MY LIFE AND I WISH IT WOULD ALL GO AWAY. WHEN I TRY TO HELP PEOPLE I END UP SCREWING IT UP. I WISH I NEVER WOULD HAVE TRIED UNLESS SHE ASKED ME TOO. I AM DONE WITH THE PAIN, SO I AM GOING TO DO WHAT IT TAKES TO END IT. AND I HOPE THAT IT DOESN'T MEAN I HAVE TO END THE BEST RELATIONSHIP I HAVE HAD. I FEEL THAT IF I LEAVE HER IT WILL END HER LIFE AS WELL AS MINE. BUT IF I TELL MY BEST FRIEND THAT WE ARE DONE BEING FRIENDS IT WILL END HERS. SO I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO IF SHE BREAKS UP WITH ME, SHE MEANS THE WORLD TO ME AND I WOULD GIVE THE WORLD TO BE WITH HER. BUT WHAT IF US BEING APART IS THE ONLY WAY WE WILL BE HAPPY? HOPEFULLY I CAN FIGURE THIS OUT IN GOOD TIME, I HOPE THAT WE STAY TOGETHER FOR AS LONG AS WE HAVE PLANNED, FOREVER. SHES A GREAT PERSON AND I NEED HER. IF I CAN HELP I WILL AND IF SHE WANTS IT I WILL. HELPING HER WILL HELP ME BE HAPPY AS LONG AS SHE WANTS IT. THAT IS WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY IS HELPING HER AND IF I AM NOT, THEN I AM NOT HAPPY. IF SHE LOVES ME SHE WILL LET ME HELP HER, SHE CHANGES HER MIND LIKE A FUCKING FAT KID EATS CAKE. ITS IRRITATING YET UNDERSTANDABLE. I WISH I UNDERSTOOD WHAT IS HAPPENING TO HER, BUT I NEVER WILL. IF SOMEONE CAN HELP ME PLEASE DO.I FEEL LIKE HER HAVING A PROBLEM IS EATING ME AS WELL. I THINK I AM INHERITING IT SLOWLY BUT SURELY. SOONER OR LATER THIS WILL TAKE HER LIFE. AND I COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT HER IN MY LIFE.
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