love or friends

LOVE IS UNEXPLAINABLE, CANT BE PUT INTO WORDS, AND IS COMPLETELY NOT UNDERSTANDABLE. A GOOD FRIEND OF MINE HELPED ME FIGURE THIS OUT, SHE IS A GREAT FRIEND AND IS IRREPLACEABLE. I HOPE LIFE WILL SORT ITS SELF OUT IN THE LONG RUN. I THINK THAT IN MY CASE, LOVE IS WHEN YOU CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT THE ONE PERSON THAT YOU CAN BE OPEN WITH AND TELL ANYTHING TO. BUT WHAT SUMS IT UP FOR ME IS THE QUOTE MY LOVE FOUND, TIBI IN OMNE TEMPUS. TRANSLATION- "FOR YOU INTO ALL TIME".

BUT WHEN YOUR BEST FRIEND IS FALLING FOR YOU ITS HARD TO SLEEP AND EAT. THE ONE PERSON I LOVE IS HATING IT THAT ANOTHER GIRL IS FALLING FOR ME, AND SHE IS THINKING SHE IS MAKING ME CHOOSE. I HAVE NOTHING TO CHOOSE BETWEEN. THE LOVE OF MY LIFE COMES FIRST, I WISH EVERYONE KNEW WHERE I WAS COMING FROM. FOR THOSE WHO DON'T KNOW HOW TO EXPRESS YOURSELF, JUST THINK ABOUT HOW YOU FEEL TOWARDS SOMEONE.

I'LL ALWAYS BE FRIENDS WITH HER, AND I'LL NEVER LEAVE THE ONE I LOVE. I THOUGHT THAT IT WOULD BE EASIER TO MAKE IT BETTER BUT IT'S NOT, NOT AT ALL. NO MATTER WHO I LOVE OR WHO I AM WITH, I'LL NEVER MAKE MY BEST FRIEND AS HAPPY AS SHE USED TO BE WITH ME LIKE WE USED TO BE. IF LIFE WERE EASY IT WOULD BE NO FUN, BUT IF IT WERE EASY IT WOULD BE SO MUCH BETTER AND EASILY DEALT WITH. I GUESS I AM HOPING THAT THE DREAMS I HAVE WITH HER WILL COME TRUE, THEY MEAN A LOT TO ME AND TO HER, SHE USED TO HAVE PROBLEMS BUT NOW WE SHARE OUR PROBLEMS. I WISH I COULD HELP EVERYONE, LIKE I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO. AS LONG THERE IS SOMEONE WHO NEEDS HELP, I'LL HAVE SOMETHING TO DO. I AM ALL ABOUT FRIENDS AND NOT ENOUGH ABOUT MYSELF, I CAN'T DO ANYTHING FOR MYSELF UNLESS THE ONES I LOVE ARE OKAY.

I WAS GIVEN A LETTER BY MY BEST FRIEND, IT READ A LOT ABOUT LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP AND THAT MEANT A LOT. BUT I FEEL THAT WE CAN NEVER BE ANYTHING MORE THAN FRIENDS. I AM SORRY I PUT HER THROUGH IT AND I WISH I COULD TAKE IT ALL BACK. BUT I REALIZE THAT I CAN'T AND I HOPE I CAN MAKE HER HAPPY ONE DAY, BUT I CAN NEVER BE MORE THAN FRIENDS. A LOT OF FRIENDSHIPS ARE RUINED BY DATING AND HOOKING UP AND I DON'T WANT THAT WITH HER BECAUSE SHE IS TOO IMPORTANT TO ME. I KNOW THAT IF I TELL HER HOW I FEEL OR IF SHE READS THIS IT WILL GO SOMEWHERE. SHE HAS BEEN TRYING TO GET OVER ME AND I AM SO VERY SORRY SHE CAN'T. BUT I'LL NEVER BE OVER THE ONE I LOVE. BUT I DON'T THINK I CAN HURT MY BEST FRIEND ANYMORE. IT MAKES ME HURT WHEN THE TWO OF THEM HURT AND LATELY I HURT A LOT. SO I AM GOING WITH WHAT MY HEART IS TELLING ME AND I AM GOING TO STAY WHERE I AM AND KEEP ENJOYING THE GOOD AND HELPING THE BAD. BUT YOU CAN NEVER FIX ALL THE BAD IN ONE LIFE, SO I'LL FIX THE BAD IN MY LOVES AND THEN FOCUS ON MINE, ONE STEP AT A TIME FOR THE BOTH OF US. IF YOU PUSH IT DOESN'T WORK, BUT IF YOU KEEP A LOOSE LEASH ON IT THEN EVENTUALLY IT WILL WORK IT'S SELF OUT. I HOPE THAT THIS GETS TO SOMEONE IN MY SITUATION.

SINCERELY
--NOBLEMAN